Sunday, December 28, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Tolerance. This word belongs to the dictionary of altruists. Dr Murks has always thought that it does not exist in reality. Being tolerant. Being tolerant is like being without bones, not really caring, not paying attention, not having an opinion. Being tolerant is like denying yourself. Denying your own ideas and ethics.
Still. Some time ago Dr Murks felt the new kind of feeling that can most probably be called tolerance. The way it happened:
Dr Murks knew a guy with whom was impossible to get along. Every time Dr Murks saw him Dr Murks felt like: “buuu-brrrr-mul-mul-mul-mul-wah-uh-luru-luru-luru-urrrrrrrr.” There was not anything specific. Or maybe there was. Too many details came together. So annoying, so stupid. Could speak hours about the issues related to him. Spend hours thinking how somebody can be like this. And at the same time, admit that he is not a bad person, just so annoying.
And on one day the feeling was gone. Gone with the wind or fallen down like a birch leave in the autumn. Dr Murks was talking to him and not feeling the “buuu-brrrr-mul-mul-mul-mul-wah-uh-luru-luru-luru-urrrrrrrr” anymore. Amazing! He was the same person, Dr Murks was the same person, but the feeling had flown away. Who can explain? Was there some door opened? Was there a wall fallen down? What happened?
The feeling is great! Dr Murks could even like this tolerance thing. Makes everything so light and free! Dr Murks can fly!!!
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Still. Auspiciously, the trees will regain their beautiful colors in the morning from the Sun.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Thursday, October 2, 2008
And. After Dr Murks had made the decision, and started to look for new residents, Dr Murks discovered that there are already new residents in the flat. Even three of them. Only a pragmatic problem that they will not pay any rent. Let's introduce them.
First. In the woodshed, there lives a huge frog. Dr Murks just saw it in the morning. A beautiful one. Overly green and dots on the back. Dr Murks really felt like kissing it. But the frog was too peaceful, too calm, too respectful that Dr Murks did not tear to.
Second. In the corner of the room lives fungus. An ugly one that aims to take over the whole wall. Dr Murks discovered it while moving around the furniture for more convenient last weeks. And there it is! Welcome! Fortunately the Owner, who lives the next door and were asked to come over right after the discover promised to throw it out the coming weekend.
Third. A small black mice. Just run under the fridge in the kitchen today. There was already a sense of the existence of the mice in the air. As somebody had tasted the chocolate on The Flatmates table. But had not seen it before. Small and beautiful black creature. It has not left even any poop around us so far. Will see about its future here..
Besides, the room is light and relatively big even for two persons. On a sunny day, the sun shines from the window the whole day. The view is towards the Soup Town, Toome Hill and even the Tower of Jaani Church can be seen. The flatmates are nice and quiet (not allowed to make parties as there are many small children living in the house, but visitors are the most welcome). Woodheeting (the oven is god and keeps the flat warm for several days). Shower, fridge, washing machine. 10 min to Town Hall Squere, 2 min to jogging path by the Emajõgi. The most beautiful house on the street! And, and, and...
The one who wants to have my room from the end of October! Contact me!
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Instead of asking somebody: "What do you think about this?", you ask: "Do you think like that?" and not accepting "no" as an answer. Sometimes even not hearing "no" as an answer. Just continuing the "bla-bla-bla"
The Supposing is specially common on the School reunions. You do not know the people so well anymore, you have some memories and you automatically Suppose that these people are the same, think the same, and you yourself start to play that you are the same. People become the ghosts - you just think you know who they are.
It is really big difference if you ask: "Where were you?" instead: "Where you there?"
Dr Murks hates The Supposing. Urrr! Do not Suppose!
Friday, September 26, 2008
The leaves are still hanging on the trees, the leaves are already fallen down to the streets, to he paths, to the river.
Dr Murks goes out from the house and walks by the river. The sunshine is warming the nose and drawing small dots on it. Dr Murks is not lifting the foot high, Dr Murks lets the foot to go through the leaves on the path. Dr Murks runs the course and listens the scrabble of leaves. Dr Murks is humming the song by FreshlyGround: "I believe in human angels, they walk barefoot and wear funny hats /.../ Everyone is a human angel... although we don't all go for bare feet and the funny hats we were made from golden sunshine"
Sunday, September 21, 2008
A new and interesting information that is not even new to a writer and gets the readers think critically about the content - was it properly examined, is it finely argued etc.
It is much more fun to write poems, draw a picture, knit a sweater, build a statue, collect red and yellow maple leaves, help to sell sheep skins on a fair, organize a car free day..
These make to feel good. To feel happy about. To laugh.
Monday, September 8, 2008
Less smell in the flat now. The next step would be to get him to wash the floor and maybe the cloths - never used the washing machine here :S.
But the best part is that Dr Murks was not mean at all.. Not even sarcastic. Nice and smiley instead. After cleaning own room and the kitchen and the lobby Dr Murks just asked: "Do you also want to use the vacuum cleaner or I but it away?" And there he was... afraid to say no?? :)
- Dr Murks is constantly dreaming up sarcastic or insulting or just mean phrases or sentences or situations to make a use of on a proper moment. Mostly friends or acquaintances are in focus.
- Dr Murks does not know how to stop the first symptom.
- Dr Murks does not know how to apologize and is the apologize even needed :S
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
How can something be so concentrated into one day? At least three... but Dr Murks can consider even more men, who have been so cool and helpful and fun today that Dr Murks could just stare with the eyes wide as dinner plates. Feels like crabbing their heads and kissing it all over.
What would be the stereotypes of these men:
1. A language teacher who responds to Dr Murks (after Dr Murks has been nagging that: "...there was not possible to register for the course anymore and anyway Dr Murks could not fulfill the requirements for the class as Dr Murks can not make it to all of the seminars..." ): "You do not disturb me in the class and if you start to I will just tell it at the time. So far, you can just participate"
2. A guy that just happens to have a facility that Dr Murks needs for practicing one of the skills Dr Murks wants to learn during this school-year. And even when he has never seen Dr Murks before and probable newer even heard that Dr Murks exists. But he is so willing to lend the facility just for a promise that Dr Murks will lean to use it. Great!
3. A guy who steps by when Dr Murks is trying to carry quite heavy and long thing by bike to home and can not make it and makes a stop to think up better system to carry it. He steps by with his rubber band from his own bike and quickly attaches the stuff on Dr Murks bike. Uh, what a guy!
Yepikayee, yepikayee, yepikayee!
Can it go better?!
Monday, September 1, 2008
Dr Murks have some secret plans, secret plans to learn new things, new skills. But too early to say them out... Firstly needs to practice a little and see if they work out and are still fun after some first lessons...
News coming soon or a little later :P
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
At the same time. Traveling withe the Zaparozets, the Mother and the Father to the places where we have used to go every summer, brings so many memories and it feels like small child again. Besides, now Dr Murks can also sit in the wheeling seat when the car is moving :)
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
2. Should Dr Murks tell the people what Dr Murks thinks even if Dr Murks knows that the people will be really offended by this? Or should Dr Murks be silent and lead the conversation to other topics?
Monday, July 21, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Dr Murks woke up at 7.30pm and was confused. Was it a dream...
Sunday, July 6, 2008
1. Talk and drink coffee with flatmate and her visiting mother. 1h spent.
2. Decide to make a cake to a flatmate who had birthday a week ago and finally returns this evening from his trip to Scotland.
a) Find a proper recipe. 15min spent.
b) Go shopping. Not only for the cake but for other foodstuff. 1h spent.
c) Think up where to find the rhubarb for the cake. 15min for calling to different friends having gardens and maybe rhubarb growing there.. As all without rhubarb, going walking to the Soup Town to find some persons in the possible rhubarb-having-gardens. Yee-yeee! FOUND!! including a nice old man and his talkative grand tougher! but 30min spent.
d) baking the cake. Another 1h, going to buy some icecream for the cake, 30 min.
e) talking to home-reached flatmates and the mother, eating supper, eating cake, drinking vine, 2h spent.
3. Enjoying the sunset on the roof-balcony. 30min spent (short time because it is cold outside and a little creepy as the roof is high and a bit creepy)
And the work can wait till the Monday comes. Dr Murks to sleep...
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Thursday, June 12, 2008
- Dog Pound
- Would you care for some old cloths for dogs to but under or over?
- Hmmm, only the cotton and wool ones that can be made into vests for dogs been on the surgery.
- Great! Will bring you a huge bag.
- Good. See you !
Where to take the old bike that looks really stylish but never gets the good run? To the flea market? Yees-yees, there it went.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
- Hello, hello! Glad I made it!
- How is it going here?
- Please today 3 liters for me. I am a milk calf!
- Can I please have a half a kilo cottage cheese as well. Would like to taste yours.
- Hello Henri! Hello Leila!
- How is the bread proofing? I have not had a time to bake any in several weeks.
- Mine is quite fine. If you come to visit me tomorrow evening you can taste the last bite.
- Why not! And I will bring fresh swiss roll out of these eggs I bought here.
- Good! See us tomorrow evening!
Friday, May 16, 2008
Dr Murks is superficial. Dr Murks lets everybody talk. Newer takes the word to say anything in any different topic. Why? People want to talk. They like to talk about themselves. About their miserable lives. But Dr Murks is yawning inside. Maybe Dr Murks would also like to talk about his miserable life. Nobody asks and Dr Murks keeps silent. Only listens.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Dr Murks is washing the window. Washing away the dirt and stupidity, the problems and anxieties. To get the clear view. To see the outer world as it is, not as it is constructed in Dr Murks' head.
Waving to the neighbors who are grilling sausages and meet in the garden and looking with a fear in their face how Dr Murks is leaning out from the high standing window to reach the last corners of the class.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
What numbers are those? Why do they not let go? Hunting and hunting, not letting go....
Finally Dr Murks opened the google and type "Dr Murks 6401". What to discover, what to remind and remember... It was the 7 years old combination of an old network Dr Murks used to belong. They want Dr Murks back! They want Dr Murks to start again!
And on Tuesday evening Dr Murks did. Dr Murks went to the meeting place, got familiar with the new innovated systems and did it. Did it again after 7 years!
Uh, it felt as a young elk had released to the nature again. Jumping over the small sods, enjoying the evening sun, the smell of fresh springy forest... Oh, what a wasted 7 years Dr Murks had spent without it! Never again!
Monday, May 5, 2008
Still, last weekends Dr Murks made some new discoveries.
Dr Murks is going to The Clean Estonia 2008 event with 6 others that Dr Murks newer seen, never heard before. Gathering rubbish from the bushes by the roads... Tons of it. Talking to these 6 and other cleaners. There are people, nice people from the town Dr murks did not have a clue.
People coming to talk on the streets. Just like being on a travel. Old homeless a-social man is coming and telling Dr Murks of his life: killed 2, robbed, spent 18 years in prison, learned about astronomy. Showing how the Earth has seasons with a cheap aftershave bottle that he for sure is using for drinking.
People coming to talk in a bar. Sunday evening in a bar. Dr Murks and The Sister as the only girls. A group of good friends asking to join, buying vine. Talking of their life, of their friendship, of...
New people, indeed. More, more, more people.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
On Sunday Dr Murks is going to the theater. The premiere of the play "Our father" About the relationships between fathers and sons... And Sveta is the video-queen!
Monday, April 21, 2008
Saturday, April 19, 2008
For example a small accident with a bike - Dr Murks riding fast down the Vanemuise hill, a car from the parking place does not see it and turns on the way. Dr Murks almost can break but still hits the first part of the car, gets a hit to the ribs and loses a breath for a moment. When Dr Murks is coming out of the car the driver is starting complain about nothing - even not a scratch on the car and the mirror can be easily bended back. Soon there is also a woman from the street who is coming and accusing them both for not being careful enough. But the life is going on and Dr Murks can breath again and sends some displeased words toward the driver who is driving away already, looks that the bike is fine and rides on with a bit shaky legs. The reality is only in a bit hurting ribs...
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Thank you for the help offered. as explain it is completely i think it would not be good to waste money an send that because .it would not help me. i am struggling to raise some money so that i can buy one. But if know that the laptop will help me then send it.
I want to study to higher hight.
If you have any way you can help me please do not hesitate.
Hope to read from you tomorrow
regards to all.
But now. What to do? What to answer when sb writes you a letter like this:
Please i will welcome any advice from you on how i can improve my situation.
Hope to hear from you.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Thursday, April 3, 2008
But for now, Dr Murks has reached the maximum of the hair length ever had before - about 45cm. Recently Dr Murks fond something special and weird with the hair... The hair has bower. The hair has strength and stoutness, electricity. And the hair transfers it while brushing them. Ururururrr. If brushing long enough the hair starts sparkling...
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Now Tsipe and Dr Murks are heating the flat but it does not get warm. No warmth at all here. Brrrrrrr! Burn as many woods as you can but the rooms are still cold. Two girls are two girls are two girls. The rose is rose is rose. Even the weather went colder in The Soup Town when Taavi left. Suddenly in the middle of the blooming Galanthuses some snow lied to rest. The starting spring is gone.
But from the bright side..
Already waiting for the time when he comes back and brings smell of sunshine, some good ocean shrimps, lobsters and fish from the Southern waters as he normally brought marine-food from the Eastern Islands.
And soon we will share a flat with a guy from South province of Estonia. Already promised to provide us with honey and jam in the case Dr Murks is willing to make pancakes. Sounds like: "What you think of the plan, when we share a common pan: you can bake the pancakes, I can eat them all" Hmmm, will see who will be the cake-baker...
But till Mr Kait moves in, Tsipe and Dr Murks are destroying all the alcohol in the house to get some warmth. Easy.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Dr Murks is writing an sms. An sms to a phone in Istambul. Iris, Ann and Taavi are there and stating their trip to the East. Also to Australia. Australia is so near.
Dr Murks is receiving an e-mail. An e-mail from an old friend who is working in Sydney. Soon-soon starting to study in an university there.
Dr Murks is making another call. A call to Buea. A small town situated on the roots of Cameroon mountain. Dr Murks talks to Leslie who has not gone out of home for 5 days. There are harsh days in Cameroon these days. Riots on the streets against Paul Biya who is being the most corrupted president of the whole world alreday 25 years now. Fuel and food prices are risen and the president wants to rule another 7 years period. At least Leslie sounds fine and talks happily of his plans to study and get married not before 10 years from now.
Dr Murks gets another e-mail. From Yaounde. Mr Edmond Che gives a n overview of his recent days. An accident with moto - fortunately all is recovering quickly. The days are harsh but still livable.
Dr Murks gets a "pip" from Marcelin, from hot Garua. And makes a "pip" back.
Dr Murks gets an e-mail with a recipe of Arroz Moro from Pinar Del Rio from Liz. With tasty greetings. Mmmmmm.
Dr Murks gets an e-mail from San Francisco. From the most faderly man Dr Murks can think of - Mr Fred. Heyhoo, Fred!
Dr Murks goes for the Easter weekend to Berlin. Just like this. Just for 3 days. Not thinking about all this exhaust the plane gives out... But planning to see Tea, Simone, Vivian and Sepp.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Look yourself: Dr Murks from 10th to 14th of March 2008
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
In the end it becomes clearer. There is a system! But the system is terrible...
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Friday, February 22, 2008
One has the taste of cold beer after long day outdoors and finally spent some time in high-heated vapor sauna. You feel like never met something so refreshing and right on its correct place.
One has the taste of mojito on sandy-windy beach with balm trees and salty water. You taste it and taste it and suddenly you have so much energy that you could take up whatever. You talk till your mouth can not move. You fulfill all the crazy ideas. And later when you think about all what happened you feel it is too improbable to be true as if you were thinking it all up.
One has the taste of bad vodka that you get the hangover strait after drunken one sip. Takes time to get back the balance of normal life. These drinks should be at least forbidden to sell after 11PM in the evening. Better if they would be considered as poisonous.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Somehow the senses are really active recently, small details are important. Melodies, brief contacts, glances, smiles, smells...
Thursday, February 7, 2008
2. The ones that are concerned over every bodies participation in the conversation and when the topic is becoming too specific for all to have the interest, they say: "Let's change now the topic that Dr Murks can also participate" Mmmmm. It really feels much better to be noticed in the group :)
3. The ones who remember even Dr Murks old jokes and still laugh at them, although it takes Dr Murks some time to remind the situation. They pass Dr Murks house on their evening walk and come to chop some wood sticks just to see somehow famous Axe in the woodshed. Eheh.
Friday, February 1, 2008
Besides, a beer smells, tastes and makes really good feeling after a month without! Mmmmm. And Mr Lukk will take Dr Murks to a restaurant, because he admitted that he took a shot already in the beginning of the month. :)
Monday, January 28, 2008
Dr Murks went to dance. First to salsa-training and then to a dance-party organized by Old-Fat-Geographers. The party was great! The party was good! The party was super! Dr Murks did not drink a bit of alcohol due to the bet still valid till the end of January. But it was even better. You do all the crazy dancing and talking as you would do when you are drunk but you see it all clearly, remember it clearly and does not have an hangover in the morning :).
But when.. but when... But when Dr Murks was finally going home the snow was melted, the snowmen were melted. Streets were empty and wet. The spring was again winning the fight with the winter. And it supposed to be January.... Bad, bad, bad El Nino!
Monday, January 14, 2008
A January without an alcohol. This is a 1st of January bet with Mr Lukk. Knowingly, why this date :). Almost half a time has gone already, not too bad time. Two discoveries - alco-free beer tastes like a water from boiled mushrooms (wak!) and without an alco it is harder to stay up till the morning at the party :).
A promise to visit Germany during the year... Somehow the country seems so far at the moment, but the time will come to go there.
To take a cat. This is really a new-year-foretell by Mdm Kusta. But it is not as easy as it seems - a cat needs a home and a home needs a family. Will see :).
Learning some "tacit knowledge". This is really only a sightly related to a new year because the handy-skills are always interesting to get to know. But as a possibilities have taken place just now. Dr Murks is learning how to make tadelakt. And not just a small pot or a exercise-wall but really a real, usable bathroom for somebody who should be crazy in letting Dr Murks and Mdm Tea practicing something they both to not know much about. At least Mdm Tea has a little more knowledge... At least it seems :).
And all the other plans, ideas that maybe newer come true. Will see, at least the year will be interesting. Maybe.