Wednesday, November 25, 2015

again

I just sit here
and think
that I should do
so many thing
but
I keep
sitting

in fact,
I have
so many plans
how to
stop sitting
but
I keep
sitting

This is
really
lame

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

No light

Yesterday
I saw a man
drinking beer
in the metro

He sat next to me
but I said nothing

And everyone else
did nothing too.

I did not like myself
in this situation
that I
was distancing
myself
from him
and from everyone
else.

I started to look around
and saw
that there was no light
in anyone's eyes.
Everyone was just as
turned inside.
Looking but not seeing.
Being here but somewhere else.
Just like myself.

I did not like it.

I did not see any smiles
during these 20min.
Instead
when I happened
to look at someone
they fast
turned away.

Only the drunk guy
was slow to turn
and I saw all the
sadness and dullness
in his eyes.

Strangely enough
I did not think:
what an unattractive man
instead
I thought
what if my son
will also be the same
in 20 years..
Without curiosity towards life
without energy
without happiness
without love.

I wish I could know
how to insure
so that
it would never
happen to him.

But
it is November.
and I am really working hard
to be able
to smile.

Friday, November 13, 2015

Sweets

Eating sweets
sweets
sweets.
Candies,
cakes,
sweet fruits,
more candies,
cakes,
sweet fruits.

I am addicted
although
I feel
It does not do much good
to eat
sweets
so much
as

the more I eat
the more tired I am
and the more
I want to
eat
sweets.

Endless circle.
How can I get out?

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Dancing in the rain

This autumn
has been rainy.
Not the weather
but the situations
happenings
surroundings
of my spirit.

I have been wet
and cold
and tired

Still,
I have discovered
that although
sometimes
I feel
really down

There is
some music
and rhythm
and joy
that comes
from deep inside
me
that makes me
dance
dance
dance
and let the
rain
pour
off.