Saturday, May 22, 2010

Princess Murks has lost the excitement of distance

There has always been some kind of mysterious aura around traveling. Excitement of seeing something new, different, experiencing something new and different. Strange and exotic. Seeing in reality the life that one has been seen pictures about, movies about, read books and travel-diaries about, heard stories about and considered to be something that could be also just made up world. Nothing to do with me! Separate place and separate life and separate feelings. Traveling is an excitement that one can never go through by living in one place only. Excitement, that one-place-rooted person can only see in dreams. Excitement, that one-place-rooted person even fears, is afraid of, never wants to feel and experience and, therefore, never goes anywhere.
Princess Murks has lost this kind of excitement. The destinations are not so exotic anymore. There is no fear for meeting something unexpected, unpleasant. There is no excitement like that... There is nothing totally especial anywhere! Nothing, that Princess Murks has not seen anywhere else, is afraid of discover or fairs to fall into. Nothing.
The "new" experiences are more like... Like the variations of the commonplace. There are human conventions that the "new" people have their personal or cultural variation of. There are nature conventions that the "new" landscapes have their topological or climatological variation of. Those can all be generalized. It is the common everyday life, everyday problems, everyday joy.
Do not misunderstand Princess Murks - it does not mean that it is not interesting to travel. It is not that Princess Murks is tired of traveling. Traveling has not became lame or boring! It is not the case, indeed!!! The seeing something new, the feeling something new has become a part of everyday realities for Princess Murks. The need to compare, the need to discover Princess Murks' own reactions the need to change Princess Murks' own convictions every day has become an addiction. Princess Murks could not stay still and be one-place-rooted, Princess Murks needs this variation of people, variation of landscapes to develop as a person. Not because of the excitement but because of the...


Lea said...

Hah, mis, köögiviljaaia kõrvalmõjud? Kuhu ma ikka lähen, aed on harida mul, on harida mul.

Mari said...

No ei. Läheks ju ikka. Igale poole läheks. Ega siis mineku tahtmine pole ära kadunud. Koguaeg käiks ringi. Pole need köögiviljad või miski muu mingi liim, mis kohale kleebiks.