Monday, September 21, 2009

Princess Murks is sad and weeps

It is raining. Princess Murks is crying.
Where am I? Why am I here? Why not there? Princess Murks wants to be there but also does not want to be there and is happy to be here. But also sad to be here and not there.
What is the thing there? Why to be there? Can not explain it. Can not understand it. Everywhere has been good so far. All the places as good as any other. Ok, ok, Princess Murks has been homesick for homey friends and food and sisters and parents and the small ones.. But there is not the home. There is apparently just another place. Should be a place just as good as any other. Noot!
What it the thing there? Why to be there? Just some physical attraction, chemical reaction that makes it different from other? No, Princess Murks do not know any formula for that. Feels something really attractive, dangerous at the same time. Interesting but unknown. Seemingly so close, simple, and easy to handle but so difficult and inaccessible.
What is it? How do describe it? Princess Murks can not say any word for or against it. Princess Murks is confused, do not know. Princess Murks wants to go there but is afraid. Princess Murks just sits and cries. Cries with the rain.


Pärnakas said...

Hi Princessen!

This is always the case! Wherever you are, somewhere is still better.

However, humans have the adaptability - use it well!

Greets from somewhere, where is always better!

Mari said...

Tnx, Pärnakas!
But the thing is that i like it Here. But want to be There as well. There should be double-me. Is it somehow possible to make myself into two halves and adapt with that :)?

piLts said...

i know this feeling..i would like to be acctually in 3 places...not only mentally but also physically...Where is this üle linna Vinski medicament- "through the walls"?:-)

Lea said...

What can i say, crying is good thing.

Just one question: If you're There then would you rather be Here? Is this really about places or people?

Mari said...

Hmmm, some sense you are correct, Lea. As being There now for some days there is no feeling to be Here again. Still, I am afraid it comes quickly. Here are other things and less things to do than There.. Understand? It is not only about people or, let say, person, but the place in general with its social and physical functions.
(just finished an essay in philosophy :)

Lea said...

geee brr