No memory

Tonight
I have no memory
I can not make
a difference
what did I say
what did I think
what did I do
Confusion
What is reality
and
what is
just
in my mind.

Disturbing
Very disturbing

I forget
my thoughts
and actions
in 5 or 10 minutes

Lucky
I still managed to make
some food
and even
have visitors

But this
made it
even more
annoying
for me.

What was reality
or what was
just in my mind.

Or
I know that
there was something
in my mind
or maybe
even said out loud
but what was it
I can not recall.

Strange feeling.
Annoying feeling.

I blame coffee
and tomorrow
I will drink no sip of it!!!