Saturday, April 17, 2021

Place and community

It does not matter 
where you are
you are still
alone
It does not matter
who you know
you are still 
alone
It does not matter
where you move
you are still 
alone
It does not matter
who you see
you are still 
alone
It does not matter
where you go
you are still
alone
It does not matter
to whom you talk
you are still 
alone
It does not matter
where you imagine yourself
you are still
alone
It does not matter
to whom you text
you are still 
alone
It does not matter
if you are alone
you are anyway
awesome

Sunday, November 1, 2020

Cannot let go

I will keep it
I will keep it to myself
I will keep it in my thoughts
I do not want to talk about it
I do not want to write about it
Absolutely not write about it
Maybe talk a little bit...

But nothing should be written. 
Nothing att all. 
Writing kills 
Writing takes it away from me
Writing makes it the property of others
It takes it away from me
But I am not ready to let go
It is mine
It is still only mine
My thoughts, my dreams, my comfort. 

Thursday, January 2, 2020

Promises

There is something magical
With the New Years...

I think I am not superstitious
But still

The promises I give
During the new years
Are much easier to keep
Compared to
a regular Wednesday-promises
or Fridays
or Sundays
Whatever days

If I say:
- No more Sweets!
- No more drinking!
- No more nagging!
- More physical activity!
- Healthier food!
- Healthier life!

Then it feels
much easier to keep...

Even if I relapse the same evening....
It is still more serious
more real!

Or no?

Friday, January 18, 2019

Keep laughing, my daughter

Keep laughing your rolling laugh
Never lose it
Keep your eyes in tiny lines
and the wrinkles in their corners
Keep your dimples on your cheeks
Keep your teeth for us to see
Never lose it

I do not mind
that you play pranks on me
If it makes you laugh
I do not mind
that you are naughty 
If it makes you laugh

I do not mind
just do not lose it

Keep laughing, my daughter

Wednesday, August 22, 2018

Mold inside my head

there is mold inside my head

i have too many plans
that stay there
waiting and rotting
never get out
but never go away

they sit and wait
and grow mold on them
i do nto let them out
because

if i did
they would change me
and maybe make me
into a better person

but
maybe not

and
then they will be done so fast
and i would not have to think anymore
or dream
fantasize
about
how i fulfill them
one day
in the future

when?
never!

Tuesday, August 14, 2018

Prefabricated conversations

A Discovery when Learning languages

In some languages there are
Prefabricated conversation.

English
Swedish
....

If you do not reply as you should...
You are rude or dum or an immigrant.

The last Three mean the same.
It feels

Especially if you can show
that you, in fact, master the language
already in relatively high level.

So.
Learn the conversations
Even thoug
they are boring
and should be challanged
in all ways.

Tuesday, July 3, 2018

On the stage

Every day
I wake up
a Cold shower
clothes
coffee
shoes
bag
to the car

that is my initiation
to step up
to the STAGE

The stage
- my work
the stage
- the people I talk to
the stage
- my smile
the stage
- the texts I write
the stage
- my Comfort zone

I keep playing my role
I keep faking it
I keep performing

That I am intelligent
that I am sagacious
that I am fierce

every day
is a spectacle

I do NOT say - it is unpleasant
Not at all!

It is fun to fool
It is fun to pretend!

It is fun to observe my astonished audience

They have no idea...