I messed you up

I feel so often
handicapped
with words

I want to say something
but comes out
something else
or

I thought I said something
but realize
it sounded different
only
when I hear
you
telling me
the same thing
similar thing

How horrible!
How could I be so careless
and harmful.

I thought
I was just honest.
But
in fact
it hurts!

It is so difficult
to be honest
but caring
at the same time.

Why?
Why is it so
difficult?

No problems, challenges

It is a big thing
the right wording
of one or other thing

It makes a big difference
if I say
'I have a problem'
or
I say
'I have a challenge'

The latter one
contains
much more
hope
that
there is also
a solution
it will be solved
and I can
actively
do something
about it!

Tonight is for quarrel

He is coming home
after a week
of work-trip.

A week
it is not long time
and he has accomplished
a lot
Enough
it was
a successful week

For me
it was not
a bad week neither
Did many things
Spent time
with kids.
Ordinary
Some problems
to solve
But all in all
it was fun

But I know
tonight
we will have
a fight.

I will get upset
I will be cranky
I will be moody
I will be pouting

It just happens
every time
he gets home
from some longer trips

It just is
like that

And tomorrow
everything is fine
again.

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Mood is in waves
some day
superhappy
other day
down, down, down
cranky with surroundings
cranky with myself
and just
feels like
crying
crying crying

The latter helps
just cry
and then
have a good sleep
so that
the next day
is at least
a tiny bit
better
if not
all cheerful
and superhappy.

So it goes
sometimes