Shaking

I am shaking
I feel
there are some standards
that I have to
keep up with.

But
I am not convinced
that
they are
the essence of
the content.

Just
some kind of
show
that needs to be
played.

Or simply faked.

Just
to give
impression.

I am divided
but also
see that
not pretending and faking
might give
even worse
impression
or even
misinterpretation
of the
content.

So
I better
fake
(that I am not
shaking).