Unpleasant

Sometimes
I have to have
unpleasant
calls.
Talk about
unpleasant things.

They are
unpleasant
because
I do not feel
confident
I have to say
something that
I know
is not pleasant to hear
for the person
I am
talking to

I do not like
during people down.
Even if I know
I need
to stand for myself
and be
confident

And then I get
this silly voice.

That is like
I want to smear
jam on the talk
I am about to
have.

Or then
I laugh
silly
between
the talk.

I should be
more
aware how silly
I might sound.
It does not make
the conversation better
rather much worse.

I know.
I have to learn.
To be better
more confident
more concrete
and not let
anyone
to step on
my feet.