Time wasted

Had flu
the whole week
and I have lost
my muse

Was doing so
well already
with work
but now
I have not done anything
for a whole week
not a sentence
written
although
my plan
was to write
a page
a day

Feeling so bad
Although
waking up
this morning
(or yesterday or..)
I already felt
better
from flu

Still
can not do
any of it

Brrrr
so bad.

Writing

Writing is powerful
When my head is full of thoughts
annoying thoughts
and I take some time
to write them down
I feel
I am sending them away
Therapy
Write them down
and do not think
about them
anymore
I do not have to.

When it happens
that I read
what I wrote
I can not remember anymore
these thoughts
were they mine?
What? Why? When?
Could remember
some vague
feeling or emotion
put the head is empty
and new thought
have taken
place.

It means also
I can not write down
the good thought
the thought
I want to keep
to enjoy
to cherish myself
Those
I want to keep
and keep and keep

So
the things I write
are always
something that
I do not need anymore
Over it!
Gone!

Good bye!
Fare well!

Fasting

I am doing fasting
and it shows
so far
that
I am so
full
of crap.

Woooo
four times now
once a week
36h a time

and it
seems
to go
worse
and worse

Also
I have realized
That
my everyday
food
is
rather
crap.
Means
It does not
make me
feel
very good.

So.
Changes
on the way

But
I know
they are
good
changes
very good.

Spring

Warm Sun
Cold Air

I love it!
I adore it!

Breath in
Look up

That is life!

Mindful

I decided
that
I will became
mindful.

Yes.
I notice
myself.

Me, me, me!

Relly needed
because
recenty
do much
thinking
about
others.
Others' problems.

Everyone
has
so many problems
around me
and
I
want to solve
them.

Even if I do not know
the people
or do not even
know
if
they are
just
wining
or really
having
problems.

I just think
too much
about them.

But now
focus is
on me.

What do I feel
and where
and what does it
tell me
about myself.

Hello, me!
How am I doing?

Do nothing

I do
Nothing
I just
cant
gather
myself
to do
anything

yes.
I can do
these everyday
things -
wake up
shower
eat
take kids to daycare
and back
and eat
and sleep

but
I just
can not
gather
myself
to
do
the things
I like.

Even when
I have theoretically
the moment
I just wanna
sit
or
lie
and
do
nothing.

TED

What an empowerment
to listen to
the people
who do
what they
like
the most

And
also can
it make so simple
how
to live the life
happy
and focused
and successful

I also want
to be
like that