I messed you up

I feel so often
handicapped
with words

I want to say something
but comes out
something else
or

I thought I said something
but realize
it sounded different
only
when I hear
you
telling me
the same thing
similar thing

How horrible!
How could I be so careless
and harmful.

I thought
I was just honest.
But
in fact
it hurts!

It is so difficult
to be honest
but caring
at the same time.

Why?
Why is it so
difficult?

No problems, challenges

It is a big thing
the right wording
of one or other thing

It makes a big difference
if I say
'I have a problem'
or
I say
'I have a challenge'

The latter one
contains
much more
hope
that
there is also
a solution
it will be solved
and I can
actively
do something
about it!

Tonight is for quarrel

He is coming home
after a week
of work-trip.

A week
it is not long time
and he has accomplished
a lot
Enough
it was
a successful week

For me
it was not
a bad week neither
Did many things
Spent time
with kids.
Ordinary
Some problems
to solve
But all in all
it was fun

But I know
tonight
we will have
a fight.

I will get upset
I will be cranky
I will be moody
I will be pouting

It just happens
every time
he gets home
from some longer trips

It just is
like that

And tomorrow
everything is fine
again.

Collapse

Mood is in waves
some day
superhappy
other day
down, down, down
cranky with surroundings
cranky with myself
and just
feels like
crying
crying crying

The latter helps
just cry
and then
have a good sleep
so that
the next day
is at least
a tiny bit
better
if not
all cheerful
and superhappy.

So it goes
sometimes

Smooth

Finally
there are already
few days
full of
good news!

Everything is going
smoothly
well
according to plan
and even better.

Just need to
suck it in
and enjoy
as much
as possible!

Yeah!

Ma söön oma stressi ära, kui see pole mitte...

Ausalt öeldes pole mul õrna aimugi, mis see
"see" olema peaks, et ma oma stressi
ära ei sööks.
Muutkui söön ja söön.
Andke juurde!
Eriti hea on midagi rasvast.
Ja siis veel veidi magusat sinna vahele.
Mmmmm.

Kõik ei ole ju halvasti,
katsu olla rahulik,
mu mõistus ütleb.
Aga keha ütleb:
"Süüa ja magada!"
Viimase rikub ära jälle mõistus,
mis muutkui ketrab ja ketrab
neid mõtteid, mitmesuguseid.

Kui oskaks vaid korjata kokku
selle valu ja rahutuse,
pettumused ja mured,
ka raevu ja viha.
Sulgeda ümbrikusse ja
saata ilma adressaadita teele.
Las nad siis rändavad
kuni väsivad.
Ja siis hääbuvad
uhkes üksinduses
nagu ikka hääbutakse.

Ma üldse ei jaksa enam
neid lõbustada ja
neile tegevusi välja mõelda
ning nende pättuseid heastada.
Aitab küll!

Feelings

What you feel about others
does not say anything
about them

It only reflects
YOU