Princess Murks is living in the metro

Princess Murks has never before lived in a town with a metro. Now, having living in one already for 5 months, Princess Murks suddenly realizes how much the metro is influencing her life. How much time she spends there, how much it connects her life between different places, how many things she does there, how many thoughts she thinks there. The metro has become a place itself, with its own identity, activities, meanings.
What happens during the time spent in metro:
- Reading, a lot of reading. Metro has the best atmosphere to concentrate on books and articles. One day Princess Murks will sit in the metro and go round-and-round just to read a good book.
- Smells. It does not stink, but quite often one can smell some smoke, some weed...
- The languages. It is nice to sit and listen to people talking foreign languages and try to understand them - Swedish, Spanish, Russian, Finnish, English... Or then just to take a free newspaper from the bench and try to read, easier even to read the advertisements. And to repeat the names of the stations after the official voice.
- The styles. What people are wearing, what are the details, how they make themselves look like. Who is stylish? Who is not stylish?
- Hairiness. Totally new topic for Princess Murks, but it is so interesting to look what kind of hair people have in their face. Specially interesting are the eyebrows. How the eyebrows are styled? Metro is a perfect place to make quite close observations about the hair :).
- Writing. To take out a notebook and write down all the turbid ideas of the day. Also the plan - what needs to be done when the metro-trip is over.
- A conversation. Has not really happened so far. And Princess Murks has not missed it. Better to be on a silent observer or introvert position. Mind your own business.
- Think. Just sit and watch with empty eyes into the distance. Maybe think of something. Or just close the eyes and try to rest them, sleep.

Princess Murks is battlefield for estrogen and progesterone

Uh. A human being is a biological compound. There are many interesting chemical, physical, etc processes going on in the body. So interesting. specially interesting is the way they effect your thoughts, your mind, your behavior.
Princess Murks is making observations with herself. Measuring her body temperature every morning. They say it shows the balance of the estrogen and progesterone in the body: which of the hormone is dominating. Approximately it should be that two weeks are for estrogen and then, the next two, for progesterone. It may vary for different reasons. Anyway, when the morning temperature is lower then the estrogen is ruling, when the morning temperature rises the progesterone takes over, and again, and again... They defeat each other in approximately every two weeks. Uh, what a battle!
Princess Murks has been writing a reaction paper to the situation:
Well. The feelings are diverse. In general, I am against any kind of war and battles but in this situation when the sequence is relatively equal and well-known then the little struggle makes the life actually more interesting and eventful. And, at the same time, the variation makes changes also in the other spheres - the activities, the thoughts the feelings, etc.
For example, when I feel the urgent need to make sports, go out and run to the end of the world, as well as make new perfect plans for my life, have many ideal ideas, solutions to every problem, as well as feel energetic and full of confidence and power etc.. this means tomorrow the estrogen will have been defeated the Other. And then I have much energy, can accomplish enormous amount of things but also want ot sleep a lot and deeply.
And, the other... when progesterone has the lead. Mostly no energy, have to force myself to do something besides nothing. Can go out with people who are not my close friends and not really care about being happy and cheerful with them. Just nod and maybe laugh a bit when the joke was really funny. Do not care about being nice. Do not care about what the future brings. Just floating with the stream or just hiding in my bubble.
Quite the opposite sides of myself! Fantastic! Just supporting the winning team...

Princess Murks is traveling in dreams

Princess Murks is traveling. Not a big news. even the blog here is a travel-log as everyone can read from the title. But still sometimes it is surprising. Surprising even for Princess Murks. Few examples:
1. Princess Murks is seemingly living in one place already for one week but every night when she goes to sleep she starts traveling. The trips are so clear. Meeting friends. Doing fun things with them - oaring a boat, skiing, having a beer in a bar, going to a cinema... Having conversations. Princess Murks feels tired and confused in the morning. Where am I now? it is hard to wake up. Needs a special effort to call back her soul to the body. Normally it takes even few hours to wake up. To come back...
2. Somebody asks Princess Murks: "So, are you the only one from your family who is living abroad?" Eh? What? Living abroad? No, Princess Murks is not living abroad. Princess Murks is just traveling. Or living? Or traveling? Or living? Is there really a big difference? Princess Murks can answer: "Yes, the others form my family are traveling at home" :)

Princess Murks is handicapped

Annoying. Annoying to be handicapped. The pitying of other people is the worse - it reminds It and then Princess Murks can not have normal time or normal conversation with these people anymore.
"Look what she has!", "Look what you have!" When they say like that then Princess Murks feels that This Thing is even growing bigger and it is impossible to hide It. And those people who make the comments will not see behind It, they can only see the weirdness, the abnormality, the handicapped. Princess Murks starts blushing, wants to hide, be in another place, fade away. Uuuh!
And what is so special about it? People should be polite enough to not mention it when they see it. Everybody knows that it is impolite to make comment about somebodies' wooden leg or chopped fingers, even chicken breasts should be left out of conversation. Hardly ever people mention the big ass or fat thighs of Princess Murks but they mention This...
And what can Princess Murks do? Princess Murks can hide It sometimes for short while but then It has to be there, on Its' place again. Let It be. Let It just be there and let it not to make a trouble for anybody. Let Princess Murks have her Big Smile.

Princess Murks is an eco-princess

Today during an anthropology-seminar Nigel Rapport told that an individual is a "flower", a personality that can bloom and has its capabilities, ways of expression, individuality. He also told that individual is a "family", it belongs to a group of people, having some things in common with every member of this community but there is nobody who would be exact copy of this person. And, individual is a "spectrum" consisting of common human-like characters... biological, emotional, etc.
But if...
individual is just a random outcome of the evolution. A part of the common ecosystem with flowers (not "flowers") and rats and elephants and birds and everything biological in the world, maybe even everything physical in the universe... Why to bother to map its characteristics? Why skipping the other parts of the system? Why should it have more importance than any other parts?

I want to find at least one person who calls her/himself anthropologist and is not humanist?

Princess Murks is a tree

The trees are standing by the roads. The trees are standing in the groups forming groves, small forests. They just had all the leaves green. Suddenly, the leaves became colorful. Yellow. Orange. Red. Brown. The sky is grey, very dark, even black and forming an humble background for the trees.

Princess Murks is walking along the street. Other people are also walking on the streets. They are wearing grey coats, dark stockings, black jackets. Princess Murks feels like a colorful tree, the dark clothes of the others form an humble background for the red hat, hearings, shoes and blue jacket of Princess Murks.

Princess Murks is sad and weeps

It is raining. Princess Murks is crying.
Where am I? Why am I here? Why not there? Princess Murks wants to be there but also does not want to be there and is happy to be here. But also sad to be here and not there.
What is the thing there? Why to be there? Can not explain it. Can not understand it. Everywhere has been good so far. All the places as good as any other. Ok, ok, Princess Murks has been homesick for homey friends and food and sisters and parents and the small ones.. But there is not the home. There is apparently just another place. Should be a place just as good as any other. Noot!
What it the thing there? Why to be there? Just some physical attraction, chemical reaction that makes it different from other? No, Princess Murks do not know any formula for that. Feels something really attractive, dangerous at the same time. Interesting but unknown. Seemingly so close, simple, and easy to handle but so difficult and inaccessible.
What is it? How do describe it? Princess Murks can not say any word for or against it. Princess Murks is confused, do not know. Princess Murks wants to go there but is afraid. Princess Murks just sits and cries. Cries with the rain.